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Etrangere ([personal profile] salinea) wrote2007-05-22 09:30 pm

Gendered fandoms

While browsing, today, I happened onto a link to this essay on Why do fanboys hate fanfics, especially slash and This is Our Garden. We Like It.. The article fits in a context of several commentaries a few weeks ago about the exclusion of the female experience of fandom by the majorly male fandom - some of which I saw at the time, some of which I missed.

[livejournal.com profile] cupidsbow's essay How Fanfictions makes us Poor which I already linked to was part of it too, I think.

Anyway, there's a lot of stuff on these discussions that made me angry as a woman against the systemicized sexism in fandom... but there's also something about the issue of gendered fandoms that really upsets me.

I've spent a majority of my "fandom life" within male dominated fandoms - first generalist Science Fiction newsgroup then Roleplaying Games clubs and forums. The kind of places where women make about 10 to 20% at most of the overall population. I've had to suffer to a lot of sexism, outright misogyny and sexual teasing. I went along with it because I wanted into the fandom and I didn't know anywhere else to get it and also because I'd been ostracized and bullied enough previously that the attention as the token girl and object of sexist and sexual jokes seemed actually an improvement.

Later on, I found some previously more mixed fandoms. ASOIAF has got, I think, about 40% of women at Ran's board. The part of Buffy's fandom I frequented, Masq's awesome ATPoBtVS had, I believe, a majority of women with a very significant male presence as well.

But it's only when I joined the Clamp's Tokyo Babylon/X's fandom in 2004 on Livejournal that I really found myself within female dominated fandoms. Fanfics as a fandom is extremely majorly made of women, I don't think men make more than 5% of it. In many ways the resulting dynamic rather surprised me. There's a lot I enjoyed from it. The welcome of feminist and queer-friendly values for one, and the warmth of people. No more dissing the female SF writers, or fantasy as a whole, or other ridiculous stuff.

There's also some things I disliked, such as the frowning upon any kind of disagreement/non positive comments, and all the things people sometime characterize as the "Cult of Nice". I'm not sure I'm so much more a fan of the Cult of Mean either, which is often horribly self-entitled, but I love debate, and I love getting helpful constructive criticism, and sometimes I'm being an ass in a discussion and I need someone to point it out to me politely (after which I can cool off then appologize). I also miss a bit of the obsessive mapping out details and powers and worldbuiling elements and stuff. Actually screw this, because people do it just as compulsively in female fandom, what I do miss is obsessive symbolical and thematic analysis which seems to catter to specific fandoms regardless of the gender makeover. What I do occasionnaly miss in female fandom is the way people don't seem to get the inherent kicking-ass awesomeness of ninja and pirates (unless talking of Jack Sparrow I s'pose) and Kung-Fu Jesus and heroin-pissing dinosaurs*

So when I get annoyed with that side of fanfic fandom and want a little bit of the other side I miss, I get back to lurking at, say, the RPG.net board, where I can see someone explaining his dilemna about one of his player telling him "No bitches at the table"

Insert visual of me face palming.

Lately it feels like I've seen more and more people talking in terms of fangirls and fanboys. The categories were new to me, but apparently they come with specific, different stereotypes where the fanboy is your everyday Dork and the fangirl squeals a lot about characters/actors being hotties. I've seen at least one person say she wouldn't like to identify as a fangirl but that it was okay for the fanboy because the stereotype had somewhat mellowed and become more hype and cool since big geeks like Joss Whedon, Kevin Smith and Tarantino started taking over Hollywood or something whereas the fangirl stereotype was still depraciated as hell which rather rejoined the whole point of the essay I mentionned at the start of this post.

But behind this I also get the impression that it's true to people. That women and men are whole different brands of fen, that they want something radically different from the text, that they play differently with the toys. That they don't fit in the same sandbox.

I'm not a fangirl. I'm certainly not a fanboy either. I'm a fan. Period.

I'm a fan who likes fanfics and roleplaying games, obsessive symbolical analysis, sociological meta, compulsive reviews of details and powers and worldbuilding stuff, and occasionnaly even fanart and fanvids and of course, the books/shows/texts too. It's all one for me.

It's not that I disaprove of what the essay talks about, about the whole fact that women said 'it's a big internet', took their stuff and the toys given by the text, and used them to play with it in their very own female space. I think that's really cool and proactive and awesome.

It's the fact that what I'd like to call my garden would be a place with equal parts of male and female point of views and welcome them all - just for the sake of diversity. (And gays, and non Americans, and gender queers, and Blacks, and people who don't have always a very correct syntax, and, and, and, too)

There's the question of whether it'd be even possible. If being just an even fraction of "regular" fandom would mean that the female part be co-opted and the female experience of fandom end up marginalized as it's once more 'All about the boy'.

I'd like to believe that it is. I've known places on the internet that were at least a little bit like this. That doesn't mean that they should not be female spaces as well...

But I'd really love to belong, myself, to a non-gendered fandom. I think that's the place where I'd be the more at ease.

Is that a bad thing to want?



* this is an obscure reference to the Role Playing Game Exalted which has canonically dinosaurs who eat Opium and pisses Heroin. It's a lucrative business. Exalted isalso an awesome game where homsexuality, gender queerness, bestiality, incest, and reincarnated magical bonds are all canon. It's a bit like the Harry Potter fandom of roleplaying games that way.

ETA: -- Spoilers for A Song of Ice and Fire - A Storm of Swords in the comments --

[identity profile] bitterfig.livejournal.com 2007-05-23 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I read this yesterday and it's really made me look at my experiences. I consider myself a newcomer to fandom since I only started writing (and to a lesser degree reading) fan fiction a little over a year ago yet when I think about it I've really been involved for years in the world of comic book collectors and film geeks though it was never defined as fandom per say. As a teenaged comic book fanatic in the late 1980's I often found myself as the "token girl", the only female in the room yet this was never an issue for me. Because I was overweight and sexually attracted to women it was easy for me to be regarded as "one of the boys". I seemed to have more in common with them then with women. Yet at the same time it does seem like there was something different about my approach to comics-- I was more interested in interpersonal dynamics then action. With the exception of Batman I preferred titles that focused on superhero teams- X-men, New Mutants, Teen Titans, the Legion of Superheroes- over series focusing on individuals. I also had to have an element of identification with a character to get really into them. Further, I did a lot of drawing at the time and a lot of my art was pin-up/cheesecake pictures of my favorite super heroines (Catwoman, Psylocke, Magick from New Mutants). Many of the male fans were actually uncomfortable with my overt sexual interest in these characters. While they might be attracted to them, they seemed to separate their devotion to a series from personal or sexual interest in its characters whereas I never did. I can't help wondering if this was something personal or gendered. As for fan fiction in a lot of ways I do see it as being in part of a larger feminist/queer tradition of revising and reclaim mainstream material. When started writing fan fiction my models were Angela Carter's and Anne Sexton's dark fairy tales, the skewed revisions of The Wizard of Oz by Geoff Ryman and Gregory Maguire and even Jean Rhys' Wide Sargasso Sea. I saw fan fiction as a neat way to analysis books, movies and comics books as well as exploring my own psycho/sexual issues. Of course I've come to realize that even in the female dominated world of fan fiction I'm still a bit of an odd girl out (more so in the anime fandoms then Harry Potter) because of my aversion to popular OTP's, fluffy romance and SQUEE!!!!! (and of course my love of minor and obscure characters, rape, incest and overt pessimism). This in mind I do think that the ideal sort of fandom would combine male and female perspective and energy-- emotion and pretension, personal identification and a certain degree of analytical distance (my worst experiences in the world of female-centered fan fiction have been the result of me "desecrating" a favorite character or pairing. Identification is one thing but nobody should be that invested in a fictional character).
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[identity profile] etrangere.livejournal.com 2007-05-23 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
It's funny the things call fandom or not! It often puzzles me. What's the definition? Surely if we're enthousiast about something and spent a lot of hobby time discussing and creating for it, it's a fandom? I really don't like it when "fandom" is used as a word meaning "American women who write slash fanfics about media shows" as it seems it sometimes is.

Having more in common with the boys than with the women, that's something I knew as well. Mostly out of lack of social graces. There's a part of fandom on LJ among women which is all networking and... I don't know how to characterize it, but it seems something very female, and it feels great being part of it, for once, and at the same time it feels something alien which I can't recognize myself within.

But word! I also was interesting in things that the male fandoms didn't often give me, the focus on the interpersonnal dynamics, the shipping! There's this SF fen monthly gathering I went to (and still do) which at one piont was ending as all the girls (5 or 6 out of 25 at the highest point ^^) in a corner talking about Buffy while the others were totally puzzled and mocking us!

It's funny, I also discovered my sexual attraction to women by drawing naked and sexy women XD

As for fan fiction in a lot of ways I do see it as being in part of a larger feminist/queer tradition of revising and reclaim mainstream material.
You know, I really love that aspect of fanfics, too. It's sort of different, transversal to the pure fannishness. But it's something I love being able to find in fanfics.
That's the kind of thins I'd be afraid of losing with a more mixed fandom, it's true.
But maybe, as [livejournal.com profile] sakanagi said, it's more about the values within the fandom. Some fandoms are just progressive and tolerant enough to make that dynamic works.