I know, it's been a long time

[salinea]

But I told you I wasn't a diary thing. Not very good at doing something, anything, regularly. I'm one of these girls who spend their life getting all excited and enthousiast about new plans and projects, and then never go through with them for very long.

Anyway, was pretty busy today with preparing my birthday party for tomorrow. Of course I've already given all those candies I had bought to children who came knocking at the door while I was preparing taboulet. I have no clue how you say taboulet in english, it's like couscous, except in a salad. Tomatoes, cucumbers, fresh mint, young onion, all cut in very tiny pieces. It's delicious.

I've been going forward for my Sidereal game too. I'm very excited about that too. My players have started making up characters, but it's hell to make them express a dicernable character concept. Okay, I'm exagering, only Fiat, GoldenH and Kiros have troubles with it. It still got too many players but I don't wanna say either GoldenH or Kiros not to play. I guess I'll have 6 players.

I've written a long rambling post in answer to rahael's previous last entry on belonging and my life : Lovely stuff all around...

Seems like I have a few Promethea left to read yet. ^_^

Totally with you on belonging. I do the same thing. Well, as much as I use "Stranger" as a nick :) yet I've always been seeking... I don't know, a place, a milieu, a domain where I would be among peers. But for that I was always searching for very biais road, very twisted ways. Most of the communities I joined
(lots of them through the internet) were pretty paradoxical. Like the Buffy board : people who watches a pop culture show... but who analyses very seriously.
I was into science fiction because I loved, loved reading, but I couldn't go read the very serious works, very traditionnal and comformist books, so I had to find the one that was not. Litterary vs. Science is also very enforced through the French Scholar system, so that was also finding something that belonged to both.
I went to study Anthropology because I wanted to study representations, values, symbols... all things that in way I got interrested in in Philosophy classes and through religions etc. But I didn't want to believe. I didn't want to accept things as such, I need, I wanted a further level of distance. Instead of philosophy, analysing what makes our philosophies work.
I've always been looking for the road that joins different worlds, the bridge, the translator. I felt that if I could find it, find those people, find what they did, I would be home.
It doesn't work that well ^_^. Very few of the people I appreciate Science Fiction with, also are into Anthropology, though some are into Buffy, and some into Roleplaying games. I can share a few things among those who shape my mind and my personnality, but I never can find them all. Nor that it should be, but it's like full span of my life I don't show to them.
There's the people I can talk about Roleplaying games and Science Fiction, there's the people I talk to about Buffy or about animes and mangas or comics, there's the people I talk about anthropology and religion and mythologies, and there's the people I talk about being Jewish and political worries... ad nauseam.
By trying to find those very special areas where i could belong, I instead made myself even more different and alone that I was.
Well, i've been raving, and I'm not sure what I mean to say.
One problem is the reverse side of loneliness is identity. We define things by what they are not. When we include, we exclude. It's how we categorize the world.
Like I couldn't really BE, and be myself, if I wasn't radically different, and unique I what was part of me. (let's see if i can make link with this thing)

But check the entry

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[bog-mod.livejournal.com]

I missed Hallowe'en, they do nothing here in Australia.

[rahael.livejournal.com]

We have tabbouleh! I think it's what you were making salad with. Sounds good!