Two down,

[salinea]

and I'm already feeling better !

A big Happy Birthday to the extremely sweet tammaiya. Wishing all the best for you, dear <3

Well, after having been depressed, limp and apathetic for more than a week, it seems i might be bouncing back. A little bit. Sorry to everyone for be so scarce lately on livejournal, i didn't want to impose my bad mood on anyone.
Well, I have yet three exams to pass, we'll see... and the va-ca-ti-on ! I don't think I wrote it there already, so I'm going to Vienna with my parents, and we'll then go to Bratislava where we'll meet family we've got who lives there. Then we're going back to Austria, and i'm going to see my boyfriend in Salzburg (we'll go ski too !) Good plans, ne ?

Oh, and because i think it's the first time I post in six days, HAPPY HANNUKAH ! ^_^

I wanted to write an X drabble for hannukah, but of course, I also want to finish a fic for Lynne-san's drabble, and I have to finish all those promised ego boost posts, and I wanna finish the drabble request before i go in vacations.... so we'll see what I can do in one day ^^;;.

I've been wondering a lot about why i've got a LJ lately. I've got a very long flist now, and even if there's no one I want to drop from it, i think it's too much and i wonder how many people don't read what i write. The other thing is, when I started this out, I wanted first to write a diary for myself. Somewhere where I could be honnest with myself and write about my life and general impressions. But now that I communicate with so many of my friends with it, I realize it's become something much different. Where I don't want to post too depressing posts, because I don't want to bore people,. And where I wonder, how can I make reading this enjoyable, how can I present my best ? Those are two very different things, how can I conciliate them ? should I multiply my number of journals like some people do ? I don't really feel like that -_- That also makes me understand why so many people use friend locked and friend filters with their post, while I really didn't like the idea of doing that at first. But, having to hide some parts of myself, having to show only faces of myself by fear of what people may think... I don't want to do that, either. Lots of uncertainty.

Book side, I went on a shopping spree to (unsuccesfuly) try to make up for being down. I got myself the second volume of Tsubasa, the Clamp no Kisoki v1 translated to french and Exalted the Fair Folk.

The Fair Folks looks like a frelling good book. Of course I fell in love just from the splat blurbs. here's one for exemple :

A little girl looked at me and said, "I'm afraid."
I told her, "Little one, even in this Age of Sorrows, there is virtue in mastering your fear. take up your father's sword. Strike me.
Perhaps it will strike true."
Ah ! Was even the Unconquered Sun so proud of his children as I,
when she raised up that blade ? She struck at me, and struck not well,
but I have made the twon a pyre in her name.

and another

I'm sorry. I really am.
You don't have anything more to give me. You've used it all up.
Family, power, talent, health - it's all gone.
I know you need me. And I wish I could give you more. But I can't. All I can do is let you go, set you free of me, send you back to the cold hard world.
You asked me that once, remember ?
It's what you wanted.

I love Exalted's basis on the Fair Folks, that they be more like Practchet's elves than... well, elves that you see anywhere else.
Beauty and cruaulty and a pure alien, voracious mind. Rocking. Plus, Rebecca Sean Borgstrom.

Comments

[generalblossom.livejournal.com]

Exalted sounds very cool.

About livejournal, all I can say is that basically you are more interesting than things, no need to feel like you are being paid to be be entertaining. I do not read every word of every post of everybody in my friend´s lists, sometimes is about interests I don´t share, or stuff I do not want to be spoilered about, or am just rushing to much to be able to read everything. Not sure where I am going off with this, but feel free to write about you and how you feel. Taking care is just sensible, we can be furious and the internet is awfully big, awfully wide and awfully long-memoried. I said to a friend once that IMO people having trouble with LJ and "exposing themselves" is usually do to what they say of others ( can not think of you saying anything mean of anyone), not what they say about themselves. If the question goes back to what people think of you or me, it´s not abnormal to care, can you imagine the monstruosity of any ego which would really really not care? it´s ok to care a bit, it makes you non-selfcentred! Makes one understand the impulse to just lurk the whole time, no? But one of the drawbacks of lurking, of not showing things and feelings, is that that way you can never get somebody to say "me too!" or to ever really understand. I guess the balance between personal and non personal is different for everybody, but go ahead work out your own balance giving yourself the freedom to keep the LJ as you want - and remember those options of viewing are your LJ-given unalienable right, don´t feel guilty for using those!

[etrangere.livejournal.com]

Exalted is very cool ! It's all about kicking ass and looking cool while you do it. Well, it's a roleplaying game, of course, not a novel. You never did RPG did you ?

As always you give some incredibly sensible and level headed advices, thank you so much for that ! Not getting people to say "me too", that would be very sad indeed. I love the internet for all the opporunities it provided me to relate with total strangers ^_^ Thank you <3